Why I left....

What is this place of dispossession? No.
No is the place.
There is only one way in
and one way out. So go,
go as deep, walk as far,
scratch as hard as you can.
Your nails succumb
and still dig.

Stop at nothing. Don't stay
outside. Slip undetected;
shadow behind the homeowner. Grab
the door handle at the moment
before the lock
locks;
knock; smile;
smile; ask.

If the door closes, find the
worm hole, the chink; find the
way inside.

It is dark inside. Air
rank. Breathe. Souring
from the inside out.
Let the dark settle, gather;
gather in the dark;
suffocate a little; feel
the drowning;
let consciousness beige your brain.

Sleep. Do not open the door.
The door is as solid as when
you arrived.
Gather in the dark.
Hold a pillow over your mouth.
Wait.
Wait in the dark,
in the silence.
Gather the dark,

the quiet, the
steel. Then
shimmer.